716 Days, What Am I doing.......

Does it ever seem that as we go along though out our days we some times wonder what the future will bring? If your efforts will be rewarded and for what amount. I feel like that today. I'm continuing my blog as promised. But as I do with other things in my life, I'm not doing as much of it as when I started. It's as though I was gun ho enthusiatic about it in the beginning as I still am, but as the project goes on and I fear I have no readers following. I'm reaching out, saying, let me know your there. Let me know you care. It's as though I, like many, are looking for some recognition. What is that all about anyways? Recognition! Is it really that important. That great, that wonderful. What's all the fuss about? Well I'm starting to realize it more and more. The importance we feel when somebody recognizes something we've done. Be it big or small, it does matter.

When in California, I pointed out some great things in a person that I recognized. They told me “keep going” even though I had only said a few things. It's as though we all have our different types of recognition we seek. Knowing this makes me feel like I've not given enough where it's due. With my family, friends and other relationships in my life. Where is it due though? That is what I've yet to discover in it's full form. I mean, how can we know when to point something out without offending or seem like we are simply flattering the other, for reasons of personal gain? Lots of questions today, but simply I'm in a place right now in my life that's confusing, and answers aren't coming very fast. It's as though it's a wall, and I need to simply get over it and move on. Maybe it's that simple, maybe it's not. This might seem like a rant but really it helps me collect my thoughts and in some manor it makes me realize how important certain aspects in my life are that aren't being attended to. This blog for example. Though I was in California I could have made a better attempt to keep my readers posted as promised.

I guess this is with any large project we start and plan to finish. We must work through the rough patches and never give up, even if we don't feel at times like anyone cares. With this project, I would have to say I've told a lot of people and now I'm going to focus efforts in the way of helping people to care about this blog :)